Recently I had a ton of work to finish since I'm shutting down all of my small businesses: wedding videography and shipping concierge. I'm doing this because I plan on working remotely while backpacking around the world.
I went 24 hours with no sleep which I haven't done in a long time. My body gave me a million signs that it was not healthy and this time I ignored it.
Back in the day, I was so obsessed with making money and leaving a legacy that I associated pain with success. It's so easy to stop loving yourself when we become attached to ideas. I see that now.
While I was thinking too much I felt my personality/ego really dominating everything which is superb for the business world, but I didn't feel good ultimately. I felt disconnected.
So I did the only thing I could, I reconnected and got back in flow by chatting with old friends, listening to music, getting enough sleep, eating well, silencing my thoughts and getting centered. I never really understood the ying-yang thing until now.
I think maybe I finally understand how to function in this current reality, while still following my gut.